Meathook Sodomy

14 June 2007 @ 03:22 pm

Ok yeah I'm back possibly for good. Umm to all those who tried advising me here thanks, really, but i never did quite ask for help. but yeah you're concern is much appreciated.

Life's been ok, but its still as ever the maze of torments. I switched around the positioning of my huge-ass drum set and its neater now, including my room. I can access it more easily and bring my laptop beside it and hook up and play along to songs. Sorry neighbours, if you ever read this, but I'll make it up to you when i become famous! haha.

School's always a constant pain in the ass, and yeah i cant be bothered really to talk about it. Just wish I had taken the smarter path to have done poly. Anyway yeah.

And maybe some of those concerned might somehow stumble upon this entry, i dont know, but yeah thanks so much for making me feel worthless and like my lifeform doesnt matter to anyone. Those whom I care for so much in a platonic way, hardly expecting anything, totally just forgot about me and went with others. Ok this may sound abstract and all but those close to me should understand. 2007 is by far a fucked up year in my life. Sometimes I dont see the point of living or having friends or caring for things or people. Sorry if i piss off anyone. But yeah there are still those who obviously matter. J, K, K thanks for always being there. And more recently N has been wonderful and nice to me so yeah the 4 of whom should know who they are, thanks yeah!

the rest, hmm fuck off? nah dont bother. smile.

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13 May 2007 @ 02:28 pm

addicted

i think this song and the vid can make you go into a trance. LOL cool by my standards! Its called Do The Cosmonauty!

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06 May 2007 @ 08:35 pm

fuck you mr manson!

Ok no disrespect to the Infamous Marilyn Manson, but I read this article about him moaning about having a tough life and shit like that just because his stripper wife left him. Let me quote abit,

"I was clearly at the point where I was ready to give up, and it wasn't that I didn't have the motivation to ... it was almost as if I couldn't bring myself to make a conclusion," Manson explained. "I can look back on it now like it was a different person, and I refuse to ever get to that place again. But it was mostly because I didn't feel that I had someone who was going to walk with me through the horrible reality that we live in. Did I want to kill myself? Yes. Did I come close to doing that? More than I'd like to think. The only thing I can say about it is, I feel like maybe I wasn't strong enough to make that choice. I guess I was just more lost than anything. I didn't have anything to attach myself to. I didn't have any emotions or fears — nothing to have hope for.

Article taken from Blabbermouth

Ok seriously fuck you, you wanna live my life? struggly for money, struggle to keep the friends you have, repeat jc in this school and in this country, see most of the people u care for not give a fuck about you? I would gladly take your life anyday, rockstardom, hot babes falling at your feet and following your every command, money, booze, you name it! ok anyway yeah i guess he has his moments to cry too. cheer up Mr Brian Hugh Warner aka Marilyn Manson, i think your music has been always good and your latest is awesome, though rather depressing.

On a more lighter note, I'm quite sure I dont matter much to many people whom have mattered to me before. and now that leaves me with a deep depressing hole to fall through after just falling through the first level. Those who know the band Meshuggah should take a listen to them, their music somehow is like a soundtrack to my life. too complicated but depressing and downward spiralling.

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01 May 2007 @ 01:37 pm

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Dude Yeah Inspiration To Fuckin Do Maths! Hell Yeah! WHAT YOU KNOW ABOUT MATH! COMEON! haha

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09 April 2007 @ 10:06 pm

This moves me

Ok i wanted to keep the below post up for some time, but i just got reminded of this song and the accompanying video. Its called 'Hurt' by the late Johnny Cash, but originally created out of nothing by the great mastermind Trent Reznor of the great band Nine Inch Nails. I might be metal, but this video moved me a long time ago and i just caught it again and i actually got moved so much and actually teared. its so sad yet powerful and good. To know more about Johnny Cash, go here http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Johnny_Cash , and read mainly his problems like drug addiction, not having enough time for his family even with so much money and fame, and ultimately his death. Then you might understand why the video moves me so much

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08 April 2007 @ 06:26 pm

i love this pic too much!

do i have to explain myself? maybe the only thing that doesnt give this a 200/100 mark is the Zildjian brand, coz i'm a Sabian Person, but do I look like I care? :D

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20 March 2007 @ 10:59 pm

Hamster babies!

Haha omg today after coming home i went to my sister's room to check and play with her hamsters... and my have they grown... then when i looked at one of the cage i noticed a small lump of the bedding thing (the hay thing) wriggling and moving about... my first reaction was i thought bugs or sth... so i opened the cage and looked inside, and to my amazement i spotted 3 LITTLE SQUIRMING HAMSTER BABIES!!! omg they were so cute and precious and tiny! they still didnt have fur or anything... so i was damn amazed and ran and told my mum who was downstairs... she shrieked! haha serious, but i think she was more amazed than shocked! so she also ran up and checked it out... i called my sis and was like relaying the good news that she had become a mother! hahahahahahaha because she treats the hamsters like her kids... so yeah there so much confusion and not knowing what to do... first we seperated the mum and dad, but then the mum was going crazy after we took her out... so we put her back and at first she went FUCKING INSANE and was jumping and trying so hard to bit the lid off and try to escape... and the mother hamster tried to actually jump and walk on two feet! hahahaha then she tamed down, maybe initially being angry for being seperated from her kiddies... so yeah then i went to sleep and yeah my sis came back and she's taking care of them now i think! haha

So yeap, in other news, i saw that girl again today in school for a very brief moment! and why does it seem like its only because of PE we see each other? haha I DONT HAVE PE TOMORROW, THURS & on FRIDAY!! lol ok so yeah, i slept too much today for my nap... ended up sleeping like 4 hours! hahaha woohoo! sleeping rocks! and i drank 750ml of bandung a.k.a 3 packets of bandung! Bandung is a price inelatic good for me! even if u raised it to 50 bucks per packet, i would kill to drink it! yay bandung and milo and tiger beer!

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Bandung + Milo + Tiger Beer = Happy Prabs (this is the only pic of me smiling)

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16 March 2007 @ 01:48 pm

I'm speechless

ok i give up, this guy is too good... my life's complete!

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13 March 2007 @ 09:04 pm

Just to set things straight...

Ok just to get things straight, i'm freaking single and no girl likes me so yes. Ok i just wanted to post that up coz that post about me getting blown away, was nothing serious... i do not like her... so stop asking me questions about who that girl is or whatever... yeap and my day was boring, and emo and angst-filed...

i'm just an angsty little juvenile bastard, aren't I?

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13 March 2007 @ 10:21 am

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a Romantic Gesture turns you on

Hey there, sweet thing! In affairs of the heart, your pulse pounds at the tender and enchanting moments. While you may not have it all mapped out just yet, the fairytale ending is what you're after and romantic gestures are a sure way to give you butterflies.

It might be sweet notes, a bubble bath for two, a surprise getaway to your favorite B&B, or even just an extra spin around the block listening to your favorite love song. Whatever it is, romantic moments (and the thoughts behind them) turn you on. Sure, brains are important, a sense of humor is attractive, and you never said there was anything wrong with sexy underthings, but it's how your partner expresses their feelings for you that really lights your fire. How romantic!

LOL... ok so where is she? haha i put this random thing here, coz the girl in the pic looks hot... HAHA
What Turns You On?

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12 March 2007 @ 01:24 pm

Props to gandhi

Props to gandhi! Wikipedia informed me that 77 years ago, the legendary Gandhi started his Protest-march against the british taxing of salt after invading India! He walked for almost a month and covered 240miles from Sabarmati Ashram to Dandi, Gujarat. Woah thats totally RESPECT man...

Ok yeah sorry about the rather random fact, but i think Gandhi rocks... haha... Past few days have been cool, not been doing anything much. Followed my sis to the computer fair at suntec yesterday and helped her get a new laptop! its freaking freaking cool and new and has windows vista! i'm jealous (haha jokingly though)... now we can be the acer family!

My bio teacher is damn good, seriously. He typed out questions and instructions and sent to every single one of his J1 students to do during the hols. As much as i wish i didnt have work to do, his motivation and actual effort is like damn inspiring! hopefully this all helps and i wanna do well! ok yeap, and stop asking too much about the person mentioned below. till next time!

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10 March 2007 @ 01:00 am

one

Blown over, is all that I can say... And its not really about her looks, its about the way she carries herself... (only a few of you might understand)

And only one song can capture the emotion truly now, Creep by radiohead...

Edit: The girl mentioned here is not the person mentioned in the below post, so dont get it mixed up...

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08 March 2007 @ 09:51 pm

7th March 1989

Happy Birthday Sumyutha!!!

Yeap, so today i went out with the great SUMZ... lol, i was late (for once) and yeah went back all the way to Bishan on my off day, haha the rafflesians who saw me there must think i love Bishan J8 too much... yeap then i met sam (or sumz or sumyutha), haha and woah i havent seen her in ages man... yeap, she looks as great as ever, ok i'm not joking, she seems better than before, and i'm saying this merely as a friend and nothing else so dont anyone of you think otherwise... so yeap and she was damn nice and treated me to my FAVOURITE CHICKEN SAUSAGE PASTA at Pastamania... haha sorry i didnt say ''no its ok, you dont have to'' when you offered to treat me... hehe just cutting to the chase ah... so yeap we sat and talked and talked and talked, while she ate on the grated cheese thing... yeap and it was actually honestly nice to have someone who actually enjoyed my company, and could talk to me so openly and happily... Havent really had that with anyone in a very long time... and it was great that we had long conversations... it so totally made my day... and her eyeliner/eyeshadow really accentuated her eyes which was damn cool ah... and she explained to me her fascination with the pushing back of her hair thing, supposedly she got hooked on to it while trying to be Britney... haha just dont go shave your head anytime soon k...

then we moved to Coffee Bean, which i called Starbucks. And in there also another guy on the phone was telling his friend or whoever on the other end, ''eh i'm in starbucks'' and we started giggling... haha and he realised and changed and said ''oh no no i'm in coffeebean''... hahaha so yeah then we got 2 slices of cheesecake, 1 blueberry cheesecake and one normal cheesecake i think... they were delightful! and Sam just went right in and just engulfed the poor cheesecakes! hahaha yeap and we proceeded to talk even more and more! it was great really, although i dont know why when i'm in these type of situations, i get damn emo inside and yeah... haiz... feels so stupid... but some of you might understand why... anyway yeah then she wanted to prank call some of my close friends... and she wanted to call Santa also... she tried calling 4 guys, but all didnt pick up... haha wow! then yeap we left around 8 and it was really fun, but yeah i was dreading school tmr but yeah...

anyway on the way home Santa replied to the miss call, and it like for that moment really touched me, in a way not many friends have done for me, and he seemed quite serious when he asked ''Dey i was abit worried thinking why u called so many times''... what i mean is if it was anyone else they would be like oh eh dey u called? or haha why u call? but for once it actually made sense when he asked, coz somehow it seems he understands me... oh well nothing's wrong with me, only thing wrong is that we became best friends very late on in our academic lifes... i wish i had known you well since sec 1 when all my torments started... oh well haha, sounds so emo...

yeap so well Happy 18th to Sumyutha once again, you're simply fabulous, and now on it doesnt matter if people bitch or say you're not that great, coz to me you mean alot that you're my friend... take care then and keep ur chin up and study hard! i'll be rooting for you!

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03 March 2007 @ 10:50 pm

WE WON!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

WE WON! WE WON! MAN UNITED FUCKING WON AT THE fuckin KOP! woohoo! And the best part was we played like shit yet we won! plus we had 10 men and liverpool had 12 (including the ref who fuckin sent off scholes)... I hope the referee has a good time roasting in hell and beating off to a nude parading hitler... YAY WE WON, while playing badly! OK MAN UNITED FUCKING ROCKS! here's to 10 loyal years as a red devil! liverpool just sucks so badly upfront they couldnt score even if an empty goal came and raped them... ok sorry to my liverfuddlian friends... its my time to gloat!

Current Location: WE WIN

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Current Music: WE WIN - MAN UTD

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01 March 2007 @ 06:27 pm

Ok this is important

ok i rushed home to write this and planned the entry on the way. This post shall be in regards to one of the previous post that sorta was an angry one that i wrote without thinking and was very brash. Anyway firstly I would like to apologise, and i really mean it those I might have hurt rather intentionally. I'm terribly sorry and you know I'm not those who would want to keep hate and harbour on it. I didnt really mean those stuff I said. Please do forgive me in time to come.

Let me go on to really explain myself and what triggered that post, and this analysis-of-sorts i had to really think deep and muster up courage to say it out. Firstly I hope those around me understand the situation with my parents, and it got worse the day before. But somehow i think i'm sort of coping with it coz its been like that for years. I feel more and more alienated, by those whom I regarded as friends, and even close friends last year... (no not really all my blaekes)... Most of you do know what happened to me and why i'm here and what's happened over the past 4 months or so... Its been hell, and i havent really gotten out of it... i might smile like most of the times, but inside the depression, its flaming and just like so so ready to explode... in fact it almost did explode once, but i shall no elaborate further. And it also sort of explains the flu/fever i had for close to 3 weeks back in january... and its very hard to fit in, not only in class, but elsewhere when ur the idiot-loudmouth who's not good looking and big sized, and not to mention a minority by race (no i dont mean i'm being segregated by race, just that its different and its a natural thing)... i might be friendly but seriously its hard for people to be friends with me... so i feel that this triggered the fact for me to get angry that people(or the person i mentioned) did not want to really talk to me properly... maybe its also the fact i really really really was dying to talk to you and to get you to notice me...

so yeah, i hope those who were affected by that stupid, unjustified and childish post by me few days back do understand, and i agree i was a complete asshole and once again i'm very very sorry...thanks for reading

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28 February 2007 @ 03:58 pm

Bio

Yay studying actually helped this time... Bio test wasnt too hard but i forgot some things for the last question. Anyway today i'm gonna go out for dinner or sth at NYDC... Karthik's sister, Sindhu(refer below) wants to meet us after coming to her wedding reception thing. She's damn nice and she wants to treat us! woohoo! she rocks man!

Somehow I'm still quite not yet happy how my birthday, 24 days ago, turned out to be... Everyone, ok maybe not everyone, dreams alot about their 18th birthday and hope and pray its a great blast... Well I did anyway, and i planned stuff.. But yeah, nothing worked out and I got ignored by a vast majority, and the rest were busy mugging at home... I was promised that it would be made up to me soon after my birthday but i'm yet to see anything...

But my class peeps were damn nice in getting me a cake and stuff on the friday before, but those who mattered most, those I went out of the way for, only bothered using up 5cents to sms. No one called, and bday at home was just adding to my depression...

Never expect anything, coz in the end you'll just end up dissapointed and sad and left like a piece of shit

Current Music: Witches - Candlemass

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25 February 2007 @ 12:42 pm

back

dont bother about that last post... It was just super angstridden... talking about angstridden, i recommend u guys listen to Angstridden by Satyricon. Its fuckin fantastic weird trippy black/doom metal sort... anyway yesterday there was ICS (Indian Cultural Society) orientation in the morning and props to the J2 ICS committee for putting in effort and coming down early and doing everything. The food was great also! haha then i rushed home at 3 to rest and change and go for my bestie (lol i sound like a girl) Karthik's Sister's wedding reception.

It was great seeing all my good friends (the blaekes) especially the girls dressed up so nicely and with makeup and all... Manpreet was the best ah and she looked damn diff and damn cool... Oh and she met Manpreet! YAH MANPREET MET MANPREET! hahahaha... Shrew and Sranj also! woohoo our table was so happening and the cameraman loved us so much and he was taking pics of us in funny/weird/cheering poses... haha... oh and Karthik also was damn sweet when he played the guitar and sang two songs for his sis... then wowee Karthik's sister Sindhu looked so pretty and all and the couple were so cute... oh and Karthik also was damn sweet when he played the guitar and sang two songs for his sis... haha and the part where some aunties of theirs kept shouting for them to kiss and they were so shy and the groom like did a quick peck on the cheek... haha then after that the dj got his groove on and started playing some bangin hits. and then Karthik's aunts or some people started getting crazy and danced around and they were this midaged aunties in saris getting their groove on and shaking around like there was no tomorrow. And then Karthik's father also got wild and started getting high and going crazy... woah he can really move... hahaha we were all cheering him on and laughing and karthik was sort of embarrassed... then after a while of hesitation, we then all moved together to the dancefloor and just partied and danced around like mad! It was shit fun with all the great typical tamil stuff and typical bhangra stuff blasting out... haha was so fun especially sharing the floor with my great great friends... haha it was great great fun and worth the hurting feet and sweat drenched shirt... haha and we're still talking about the fun-ness of yest night! THANKS KARTHIK, AND MR AND MRS SUNDAR! AND IF SINDHU YOU DO SEE THIS, HAVE A GREAT MARRIED LIFE AND ENJOY! haha k till next time!

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Current Music: Hangar 18 - Megadeth

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22 February 2007 @ 07:29 pm

Yay

ok yay today's effing chem test was weird and unexpected to say the least. We werent even given enough coaching by our tutor. Urgh ok so yeah that spoilt the day but all in all it was a slack and boring day and I was hoping to run today for PE (for the first time), but we had lecture. YES, WE HAD A PE LECTURE. lol Mr Siva the coolio lectured us on setting goals and yeah. I'm still yet to go up to Vic (& Cheryl) to say hi, but hopefully I'll do it soon. Somehow they are abit intimidating, or maybe i'm just too self conscious. Whatever. Ok so yeah, and I found a really cool band today, called Candlemass! They effing rock! Love their slow depressive doom metal/rock songs. If you have the time watch their vid!

Black Dwarf - Candlemass

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Current Music: Black Dwarf - Candlemass

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21 February 2007 @ 11:04 pm

Test Test!

Ok hi I just switched to Lifejournal coz firstly its easier to update, and I think its more fuss-free... anyway yeap so this is a test, and oh shit I have a test tomorrow also! lol k till tomorrow! i shall update more tomorrow

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Current Music: Angstridden - Satyricon

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